My little Carter just turned five.
And so we start another year that will certainly go faster than the last. It really is something that sucks about being a parent, life really moves too quickly to take it all in. How often have you heard someone say before you know it the kids will be off at college. It's so true.
I am enjoying every minute of it, but those minutes are flying by, way too fast. The kids are getting so big and learning new and amazing things every single day. You want to take mental notes about it all but there is only so much that your brain can store. I have about 25,000 pictures that I have taken over the years with the kids in them, but who has time to look at them all? Every now and then I will go and start to delete some pictures that seem redundant, but I find that I have a hard time doing that even with ones that are completely out of focus. It's almost as if deleting the photo would delete a memory altogether.
It's really hard sometimes seeing them get so big. You almost want to stunt their growth and keep them the way that they are. Why does everything have to get old? It really sucks.
I look at my niece, she just turned 16 years old and she is already starting to prepare for life after her parents house. She is really in the midst of thinking about college and already knows what she wants to be when she gets older, a doctor of all things. I don't know what my kids want to be yet, but soon they are going to have to start thinking about that. They will have to start thinking about what life will hold when they no longer live under my roof. Their own house? That's just crazy to even think about.
I honestly don't know how my parents handled it because it's something that I struggle with everyday. How could they have a 38 year old son? Where did that time go? Wasn't I just that five year old kid celebrating his birthday?
I know if I continue to dwell on the future I am going to miss everything in the here and now, but it really is hard to not think about it. It does go fast, too fast.
My little guy is five? How? I have no answers.